Randomness…

I’m feeling random tonight!

I stamped 3 cards today! Hooray! Small signs of normalcy continue! Granted, they were cased from other people, but by golly, I stamped! They weren’t exact cases either, I changed some things on a couple of them! :) I know, this isn’t my *stampin’ blog* but oh well!

I’m doing better, not quite so irritable, although, that’s easy to say when I’ve been stampin’ all day, and the kids have all been off at friends houses swimming! :) Baby steps, right?

B & I both see the pdoc tomorrow. She got our lithium levels back last week and apparently they are still somewhat low. I don’t know if she’s going to want to increase again or not. I guess I’ll find that out tomorrow afternoon.

I got the sweetest e-mail today from my *niece* asking about B’s disorder and wanting to learn about it. I thought it was sweet that she’s so concerned. :) Just more proof that God is surrounding all of us with loving friends!

The real reason I came to post right now was because I was listening to my playlist earlier on my myspace page, and heard a song I haven’t heard in a LONG time! It’s called, “Set Me Free” by Casting Crowns. It’s an amazing song, and never fails to drive me to tears, big sobbing tears too! It so eloquently speaks to what living with depression and/or bipolar is like.

When we saw Casting Crowns in concert 2 1/2 years ago, I had just gotten home from my first hospitalization. When they sang this song, I really lost it. They started it out by reading from scripture, from Mark Chapter 5, the story of the man possessed by many demons. Then they went into this song, and I gotta tell you, I was blown away. It was such a moving and amazing moment! Anyway, earlier today when I was stamping and listening to my playlist and this song came on, it floored me just like it did 2 1/2 years ago. If you haven’t heard it, check out the video above…

Why?

Someone asked me why free to dance? So I thought I would explain. There are so many WONDERFUL Christian songs out there. One in particular really speaks to me though. It is called Free, and it is by Ginny Owens. The lyrics are so perfectly descriptive of who I am, and of who I want to be, and who I can be, in Christ…

Turning molehills into mountains,
Making big deals out of small ones,
Bearing gifts as if they’re burdens,
This is how it’s been.

Fear of coming out of my shell,
Too many things I can’t do too well,
Afraid I’ll try real hard and I’ll fail -This is how it’s been.

Till the day you pounded on my heart’s door,
And you shouted joyfully,”You’re not a slave anymore”

“You’re free to dance-Forget about your two left feet
And you’re free to sing-Even joyful noise is music to me
and you’re free to love,
Cause I’ve given you My love,
and it’s made you free
I have set you free

My mind finds hard to believe
That You became humanity
and changed the course of history,
Because You loved me so.

And my heart cannot understand
Why You’d accept me as I am,
But You say You’ve always had a plan,
And that’s all I need to know.

So when I am consumed by what the world will say,
It’s then You’re singing to me,
As you remove my chains

You’re free to dance-Forget about your two left feet
And you’re free to sing-Even joyful noise is music to me
and you’re free to love,
Cause I’ve given you My love,
and it’s made you free
I have set you free

Free from worry, free from envy and denial
Free to live, free to give, free to smile

You’re free to dance-Forget about your two left feet
And you’re free to sing-Even joyful noise is music to me
and you’re free to love,
Cause I’ve given you My love,and it’s made you free
I’ve given you My love,and it’s made you free
I’ve set you free

http://www.myspace.com/ginnyowens

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